Father's Day was excellent. Started off badly, though. I had a terrible time trying to sleep on Saturday night, kept thinking about the upcoming cellphone confrontation, how to handle it, trying to think of all the things she could say, and how I would react to them, etc. The calls (presumably) to the OG had been continuing at a rate of about 25 minutes/day.
The only time I could drift off to sleep a bit was when I cuddled up close to her, or when she would sleep with her head on my chest. That helped calm me down, and I tried (probably unsuccessfully) not to act as needy as I felt.
After the alarm went off at 5:30 (we wanted to make sure that we got a good spot at the lake), I hugged her, and told her that I love her. I wasn't expecting any response; she hasn't said she loved me since January. But she whispered back, "I love you, too". Whoa, what was that? In my sleepy state, I wasn't sure that I heard her right, so I asked her what she said, and she repeated it. Wow, does that feel good.
We had a great day jetskiing with the boys at the lake. The weather was perfect, low 90s. Didn't get back until just before dusk, exhausted, and went to bed very early. Slept great (what a difference an ILY can make, eh?). Woke up, had fantastic sex, and ate breakfast together. Great stuff. Between yesterday and this morning, we've talked lots about future plans - that's always very reassuring, especially when she initiates that sort of conversation. She suggested I take the 25th off so that we can spend the day together. Yes, I think I will.
I'm feeling more confident now. It seems that whenever we can spend significant time together, she responds well and enjoys it. Other than this coming weekend, when I'll be on a long-planned golf outing, we'll be spending quite a bit of time together (relatively speaking).
So, the confrontation about the cellphone will have to wait, indefinitely. It's still going to bug me, no doubt. I won't have true peace until I know that the A is really totally over, but given all that happened yesterday and today, I can handle the situation the way it is, for now.
