Just wanted to say that I am so sorry for all the hurt and tears you are feeling right now. I can really identify with so many of the things you were sharing in your post. I'm about 4 months in with my WAW and it's a tough journey. I was feeling very much like my W. is waiting for some kind of epiphany too, and this is really frustrating.
The crying feels terrible, but just let it happen. It's going to take some time but in the interim use this board to vent, post about your hurt, fears, concerns. I've found it to be a very compassionate and caring place. Though our situations are all different, many features are very similar, and we are all trying to find our way through a most devastating experience.
Please keep posting and know that it is normal to feel like you are going crazy in this whole thing.
