Why Can't I DB the right way??

[water2moon]

Sorry Puppy but I have to disagree on that Intel GPS thing. If I did that I would feel even crazier and H would surely think I'd gone over the deep end. I've decided to call a dr tomorrow and tell them about my anxiety and panic attacks and how I can't seem to focus on anything. For 3 months I've done nothing but talk about his damned affair and i'm getting tired of it.I'm sure my friends and family are as well..Perhaps I'm in need of some meds or something to help me cope? I spent the entire evening crying and I'm not even sure why exactly. School starts up again for me and I need to focus on that. But I feel so weak right now. My big obstacles tonight were H's schedule. He told me when he would be workign overtiome later this month. There were 3 days. 2 of those days the OW is off. She works for FDNY as an EMT as well but different station.So right away I assume he won't be workign but will be with her.Need to stop this..And I don't want to push him out but I know he's going to see her as the better option if I don't stop soon.