Jack- He definitely doesn't know what he wants, and that tells me he's still in the middle of his crisis, if he's even having one; nothing I can do for him. And I didn't read your words as harsh-what i really meant was I'm tired of feeling like crying. Sometimes I give in, like today big time, most of the time I don't. And why am I waiting- hope, I guess. Because before all this he was a wonderful husband, and I can't see myself without him.
Cat- Thanks for the hugs. Sounds like you've lived my life almost exactly! (except my H won't go to counseling) I've told him the same thing- if you don't act loving, you won't get those feelings back. He doesn't buy it- he's just expecting some sort of epiphany (or not). If that's what he's expecting, it's not going to happen. I do think he's empty inside, and has no idea why (although he likes to blame all his problems on me). And you're right, I am afraid, and I need to get over it. I'm about to turn 40, with 2 young children, and starting over terrifies me; dating terrifies me more (if there are men out there that date 40 year olds with little kids :)) I see from your post you've been here a while, been through a lot, and that you're now legally separated. Where do you think you're going from here?
Sometimes I think he wants me to make the decision for him, so he doen't have to feel like the bad guy.
Thanks again.
Me 39 H 45 T13 M11 D6.5 S4 ILYBNILWY July 07 OW e-mails found 12/15/07 H moved out 3/15/08
