Hi Bri, Thanks for the info. I think I resent the fact that h had the A & actually could do that to me. I also resent the fact that it seems to be H does not want to talk about it, I don't know I don't want the details or anything I have made my mind up on that, Actually I think what I resent the most other than the A is that I feel like I always have to worry if things are ok if I'm doing the right things etc. I don't feel I should have to feel that way all of the time. So insecure I guess. I don't know if I will ever get past that. For ex. my got up this morning (as h does every morning) to spend a little time w us then goes back to bed. Everything was fine we had S** & everything before I had to leave to do some errands. I come home H gets up & is in a foul mood, I asked if I did something to make h mad. No. H foul mood continued up until h had to leave for work. So now I'm in a panic, I hate this, & the worst part about it is I don't think I can talk to h openly about my feelings, I don't know if I will ever be able to. H is not much of a talker, everything gets put on the back burner & I think that was a part of our problem. SDtill si I guess because I'm afraid to open things up. As for my A date yes h did treat me well, it was nice although I am more of the romantic type than h is, so I am always alittle disappointed as far as that goes. I mean we (forgive me for being blunt) have s** all the time no problem there (sometimes to much for me) I would never tell h that though. But I would like it to be a little more affectiont, My H has never really been as affectionet as I would like. Although s** now is better than it has ever been, go figure. I also feel like I always think of h & do things for h, make sure h has everything h wants & needs & I don't get that in return I always put H before myself, I do that w the kids too. And I still feel like I'm not doing enough. I know my H works very hard for us & doesn't have alot of time or energy so maybe h just feels that's enough. I don't know. As far as h quiting h job I so wish but that is not possible because h will never make the kind of money starting somewhere else, h would have to start at a lower pay rate & work h way up again. So I completly understand, I just wish the OW would quit. I am so sorry I rambled on, any ADVISE!!! Could use some. Good luck w your massage s love it I'm sure, especially after a long day at work. Talk to you soon. By the way how's the cell phone snooping going? GOOD? I hope. I know how hard it is. ~~K~~
