Hi Bri, It's me again. I got on the Marriage Builders web site, Where should I actually begin? I also wanted to ask if you have been recommeded any books or read any that helped. I have DR of course & I read after the affair (which I really didn't like very much) I have been planning to take a trip to the library to see if they would have any of the books that other DB'ers have recommended. I have been having those up & down feelings a little to much this week. IL my H but I think I'm starting to resent h now, I don't know if that is normal or not? I have overwhelming feeling of love for h most of the time, but then I panic (I guess) & start feeling unsure about things & sometimes feel like I would like to make h pay for what h has done to me ( more love than resentment) Have you had these feelings? I hope since you haven't been on that your having a good start to the weekend!!! ~~K~~