I think we are in a rut

[klm]

Pain is Pain, Being "scared" of the future is the same if you have kids or not.

I agree. Actually when I first started posting here it really irritated me when people said just what I said. I would think..just because we don't have kids doesn't make me love my H any less. BUT, I do see now that if I was trying to keep a family together...I might have a little bit more fight in me. The pain is the same, but I think it makes the time you are willing to wait different.

When and if I ask for a divorce I WILL BE THE ONE ending this artifical marriage. It hurts making ME the bad guy when I did nothing wrong..

Yep, me too. I will have to be the one to do it and I HATE that.

A gratitude journal is just something where you write down things you are thankful for each day. I would say a minimum of 5, but could be more. These things could be as simple as going to work, or making it through the day without crying. Some days your really have to dig for things...but if you know you are going to have to write about it at night...it really helps you to focus on the positives even throughout the day.