Your thread caught my eye b/c I love that song too!
I hope you are feeling better today; you sure have been going through a tough time. Living and working with your H is no picnic, not to mention ow being there too. Is it at all possible to move your office? I think it is incredibly disrespectful and thoughtless for them to interact the way you describe. Even if there is nothing going on, the fact that it bothers you should be enough for them to stop, IMHO. Geesh!
Your first and second posts struck a chord with me because I can really relate you how you feel in many ways. I, too, have had problems with depression and self-esteem, and my H could not deal with the depression. I felt terribly guilty about it, until my brother somehow managed to drill it into me that his inability to deal with it refleced HIM, not ME. Same with you: You do not choose to be depressed, for gosh sakes; it's not like you can do much about it if it's your thyroid (if your meds are not working).
Why does he think you would resent him if you had kids? And what's the deal with him sitting you down and discussing what he doesn't like about you in the first place?! What about him? Has he said anything about HIS contributions to any problematic dynamic here? Do you really think it is all your fault?
Girl, you are on the right track with your GAL, and I hope you will keep it up. If you can stand to spend some quality time with your H, I would suggest doing it this w/e, but also spending some time alone or with friends, so that you can have some space from your M troubles.
I will keep in touch, if you like.
Nicola
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