Thanks Cat. You know I used to tell folks to watch out for the unknown expectations that they harbor deep inside. The one's we don't always realize we are holding. Yet here I am holding those and forgetting to pay attention to these unknown expectations.
So you are very right in reminding me!
Sadly I sit here contemplating filing so I can move on with my life. I actually have all the paperwork completed which in itself is very, very sad. Actually it was pretty easy and I have to say lawyers make serious money for such little work.
But somehow deep inside me I do have this feeling I'm not done yet, I'm not done standing, I'm not done working on me, I'm not done, we're not done even if she's out dating, even if I've explored it. Such conflicting feelings and thoughts. I want to be free, to feel great all the time, to not worry or think about this stuff, to just feel loved, accepted, appreciated and wanted. Yet I know what's important, my family, God and the vows I give to them, providing for them and doing what's right. So how can filing help accomplish the things I feel I must do for my family, myself and God?
Last edited by catfan; 04/11/0807:55 PM.
If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive. - Mother Theresa
