well, I guess I've accepted that H's opinion is not infallible, it was at some point, because he always had been the man of my life (I really didn't have a serious bfriend before him). I guess it also involves taking him out of the equation as far as how much he means to me. I use to value him highly so his opinion mattered a lot.
Now, sadly, I have to recognize how low and deep he's fallen, he isn't that good man with morals and spine I married. I have to accept that the person I choose has fallen, I pity him somedays, maybe some day he'll open up his heart to God and will find goodness again. In the meantime, he is broken, he knows it, and I now will plan a life without him.
fig reminded me of another point C brought up, that as much as I wished to go back in time and do things differently things would'nt have changed, H would've still made the bad decisions he made because HE was the problem, I did all I could, the rest was up to him.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
