Can I post here ?

[Mark1965]

I believe I might not belong here. But I am struggling with same issues as married couples..

M:43
G/F:45
DECEASED SON: 2 YRS NOW
G/FD:23 -Lives away. But hates me
MD:21- Just moved home from collage.
R: 1YR AND 8 MONTHS

See I am absolutely crazy about her.I became so far -so deeply in love -I forgot that she is/was only my girlfriend and not my wife.

So crazy for her - That when an occasion arises to purchase a card ,flowers, candy kinda thing. She arouses all the majical things from my childhood..
For instance:
When I was a child - Walt Disney World was a magical place for me.So after I fell in love with her- I always purchase stuff characters from Walt Disney-
Whinnie Poo - Cause I you love
Gooffy - Cause I am goofy over you
Tigger the Tiger- Hey, Hey, Hey - Hereeee I ammmm ..

But this isn't as if I am not more than wrong in this relationship - I CAN AND WILL OWN UP TO MY FAULTS- As they are plentiful in this relationship.But having been watching the board and reading other person's posting thought's.. I have done most everything we all have discussed here..

Can I be on this board? If so then will post our story....Also I would spill all the beans of the relationship - my plentiful faults and her's..

Hoping for a good response from yall??

She has a OM whom she is hiding from me. But I know about it. I have been some crap though.. Also though she has moved out of house - We still sleep just about every night together- Even sometimes - she comes home and sleeps -I tell her it is as she has stated before - It is for the 1st time in her life - She is at home and knows and feels like she belongs in my house. But am beginning to believe it is ILYBNILWY deals..

IT IS JUST RIPPING ME FROM MY FRAME AND SOMETIMES I JUST WANT TO LAY DOWN AND CRY OR DIE..

I am putting the cart before horse - until I can see if I can plead for help from yall...

V/R,
M