I will be moving, but just to another place. Had I not found anything I liked within the budget (I'm very picky), my plan was to pack up and leave the country. I found something, so it looks like my time here isn't up just yet.
I actually found something below my current rental, which will save my in-laws or my H (whoever ends up paying for it) some money. It's far less luxurious than what we're accustomed to, but I have always wanted to live in a place like this. The move, to me, is a good thing because it allows H to see that I'm ok with moving on without him. Friends have urged me to ask for more $ for rent or to demand something from my H, but it just doesn't feel right to me. I'm excited about our new place and even though I haven't been given any assurances, I feel good about what will happen in the future. I don't know if I'm hormonal, unrealistic, spoiled, or just plain stupid, but at the moment, rebuilding a friendship with my H seems more important than financial security. (I hope that I will never have to regret saying that.)
Lately, I've seen that things could be a whole lot worse, so I'm not complaining about my sitch. The move will be stressful, especially since the new place requires a lot of work. I will not expect H to help in any way, and I will bite my tongue when it comes to dealing with H's things that he's left behind. Still debating what I should do with all of it, as I don't really have the space for it in the new place.
Anyway, warm and fuzzy feels right. I highly recommend it.
