Thanks everyone so much!!! I was surprised last night I really wasn't that nervous, just a little bit, and the director was telling us that you do better usually if you are a little nervous. I remembered all my lines and got some laughs so I think that was good. I did good on all the dances, and during the "Mame" song we did a kick line and everyone was in synch, so the audience was clapping when we did it and that was my favorite moment. During the "keystone cop" routine, I am a policeman and we run around in circles and one of the teenage boys was really excited I guess and knocked me down though!!! I was embarassed, but not really hurt and the audience laughed as they probably thought that was planned or something!!! I'm going to try to just avoid running anywhere in his vicinity from now on though!!! \:\) The audience apparently liked it, laughed a lot and everything so I guess I will have to give the play a good review! Although I think it was a good idea just for the first night, everyone in the audience had dinner & drinks before the play, so that might have helped too!!! I wish they were doing that every night!!! \:\)

H came back from his Tampa trip & picked up D8 at around 10 which was good b/c she was pretty tired by then. I came home and H was still there, I think to yell at me about S14 leaving a heater on in his room all day! (It's not that cold here anymore, and I had no idea he had done that & of course the day was crazy for me with all the therapy appts. & the first night of the play!!!) H was very unpleasant and in a bad mood I guess b/c of that, so I just said sorry, I'll hide the heater from him (until winter anyway) so that won't happen again.

I was in my usual good, happy mood and he kind of brings me down a little but I tried not to, b/c I know that's wrong and I am realizing I don't want to be married to someone always moody and upset with me anyway. One of the girls in the cast is like H, always upset with someone and very moody, and I think what a shame it is to live your life like that when you can be happy and not mad at people (they way I prefer to live!!!) \:\)

H also asked me about the therapy visit. I said it was interesting and walked the dog then (he really did need to go out). When I got back H left and I was talking mid-sentence about something and he just walked out the door without saying goodbye. I guess I will send him an email about how therapy went as I am better at writing I think than talking, and he was in such a bad mood anyway any talk prob. wouldn't have gone well.

All the things D8 said I already knew as she is always pretty talkative with me, and I think she is OK as H is spending time with her quite a bit during the play. S14 though is 99% a non-talker so it was good I think for him to talk about everything. He did say when H moved out it wasn't a big deal to him b/c H hadn't been around much anyway (what I already suspected when they didn't cry or act upset when H left) and that he sees him even less now (esp. b/c S14 has been working at the play nights H is here) :(. I don't think I will tell H he said that? as I think that will cause him to get super upset & think I am trying to blame him, but do want to tell him that S14 said he wants to spend more time with his Dad. I don't think that will antagonize him and hopefully he will try to spend more time with S14.

H tended esp. to spend time on the porch before he moved out and D8 would go out and be with him, but S14 didn't. I think H needs to make more of an effort to spend time with him b/c S14 doesn't seek him out like D8. S14 also was saying that he had read a dozen books this week and you could tell he was really proud of that. I knew he enjoyed reading, but not that much!!! He said he wants to start going to the library also, which surprised me b/c when I took him when he was younger he seemed bored. So I will start taking the kids to the library every week, and thought I'd try to do it when they have one of the activities for kids D8's age too so she will hopefully like it, too!!! \:\) Sorry everyone for writing a book today!!! \:\) Karen

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