Help me act AS IF, Thread 4

[newnamenewlife]

I'm meeting H at MC in an hour, to discuss S plans. I am feeling sick and panicky and like maybe I should just not show up (that would be a 180!).

This morning H&I drove the girls to school and he and I were joking back and forth. I know joking together does not make a M, but it does point to chemistry that I know we still have. Very hard to think we will lose that too. H says he wants to stay friends--but what does that really mean? Does he think we're going to hang out together and go to movies as friends? I can't picture that!

Anyway, I know I have to go to the MC and face this. I am going to try to suppress all anger and accusations, but I feel so awful and sick inside.