Still Tryin's 2nd piecing

[S.T. _I Made It!]

okay.

s9 was not going to bed like I asked so I ended up yelling a couple times to do what I said. well H comes out wondering whats going on, I tell him and then he goes in to the bathroom with s9 and starts lecturing or whatever and I guess s9 was biting his tongue (so as not to yell back he says, not sure if that's true though, who knows) and H took it as him being disrespectful, and they argued back and forth once or twice and then H left the room saying "you f'n punk" (but said the word for real) halfway under his breath, and halfway loud enough for everyone to hear.

okay, well, I understand the anger that comes with raising kids, I do it myself, and I had gotten very angry before H came in.

However, I'm upset or dissappointed because H doesn't want to appologize to s9. said he's appologized enough and thinks this would be good for him. he needs to see that it's his fault for making him angry.

???? this is very old school. H and I were txting back and forth about it.

me: he heard u call him a f'n punk. fyi
H: Sorry I cussed but I wanted to hit him.
me: u dont need 2 tell me sori. He was pretty hurt by it. He n bed now.
H: Well i hope he was. now he mite understand how he acts most of the time.
me: So u think cusing at him is ok? I know he needs 2 understand. I was hoping ud apologize bout the cusing part.
H: Don't want to he needs to know what he does.
me:So u think it's appropriate 2 call ur son a f'n punk?
H: maybe not but there he made me do it.
me: He didn't make u silly. U get 2 choose wat comes out of ur mouth. So do I. I think it wuld b gd if u did. He prolly think u hate him.
H: He can think awhile then. May be good for him.
me: So ul apologize later?
H:Don't know
me: Wel either u think it was right or u think it wrong. If u think wrong, then u shuld show an example of apology. I have done the same, it's not easy tho.
H: I'm sick of apologizing to him. He can live with this awhile.
me: Wen hav u apologized?
H: I have. Sorry but I'm done with this.

that was it. then he comes into s3 bedroom while I'm reading like nothing happened.

It makes me sad to think that H is that prideful and can't apologize for cussing at his son. I think I've heard him appologize once. I really can't remember my H saying sorry. He NEVER would say it to me before the sitch, and has only said it to me after (which has been one of his good changes).

hmmmm. I'm trying to look at it from his view. I'm trying to let him take the responsibility and not interfere like I always did before. It shouldn't be: Dad getting mad at kids, then mom sticking up for them.

However, I did go in after it happened to s9 while he was crying about it, and that's when I found out he heard H say it, and I said, he said that out of anger, he didn't mean it. This is what anger does, do you see it?

anger has been something I've been trying to teach my s9 about. He has it as well, and if it's not controlled, by the time he's a teen, I have a feeling it's going to be really out of control.

lots to ponder and pray about.