I know how you feel about GOD, I felt the same way for awhile, but the someone told me this quote "I know God will not give me anything that I can't handle, I just wish he didn't trust me so much" It made me feel alittle better. Plus I think praying helps so much but I guess it doesn't mean our prayers will be answered the way we want them to be. ~~K~~ PS. Keep your chin up I know how hard it is for you.