Happy Together at Long Last!!!

[Jen_Jam]

Julie, Nic and SD (and someone else who emailed me ... you know who you are and thank you)

thank you! I was half expecting a "hey you're lucky, your H is home". And I am. But the probs we had before he left, me wanting more intimacy .. still there.

We are going out in a mo so shall see what H does. Talking doesn't seem to work, so will try action. Trouble is, as long as I am happy and smiling H thinks "oh, Jen's OK, I don't have to make any effort" ARGH!!!!

SD - GAL, yes I have dropped that off a bit. We have guinea pigs, one of them at the moment is a bit poorly, so most of my GAL consists of force feeding her and cleaning her bottom! We've lost 3 since Nov 30th too, so most of my attention has been on them. Not the most attractive of GAL. I think I may try the list in writing though. I've not written H a letter for a bit, good idea to try. So Nic, you're right, the talking isn't working, time to stop that cheeseless tunnel. Trouble is, not sure which tunnel to try next. Will carry on thinking.

How am I making myself happy? Not sure, being appreciative of who I am, realising that my low self esteem is gone, that yes I make mistakes and can't be perfect, losing 21lbs (although I have had a few run-ins with lager and chocolate this week) and mainly guinea pigs. Set up a new, much larger, home made cage for them, done a lot more research on them, got them a lot of toys etc (and mostly from pound shops (dollar stores in the US), having pets doesn't have to be expensive.) We lost 3 but we have 3 new ones from a rescue, 4 girls in total.

If all that fails - I have no idea what a cabana boy is but I DO like the idea of riding one like a pony!!!