Stronger - but still confused

[water2moon]

Neecy what you wrote hit home with me so hard. I too spend hours each day focusing on my H and what he's done to me.I let the OW into my head all day long and it ticks me off!! This is what she wants. she wants me to be miserable she wants me to throw him out. H has told me that the way I've been acting is not attractive. Who can blame him. Many hours have been spent in bed with the covers over my head wallowing in my own self pity. I listened to friend that may have good intentions but really don't know what they're talkign about. One friend told me that H should be kissing my butt and buying me flowers and gifts. Heck at this point I would be happy if he would stop loving the OW and find his way back to me. Slowly but surely I hope this will happen.You take all the time you need but do your best to GAL and make yourself happy. I know detachign is so hard and it's taken me months..I'm finally starting to get it.Stay Strong you'll be in my thoughts.