unevitably aboard the D train...

[cat03]

every time I try to control the stich myself I get burned, I have to keep throwing this whole crap God's way, i really can't handle it, got into another round of txts w/H, actually keeping my cool and will NOT bring up any more ow/M stuff. Clearly he has his views and no matter what I say I will not get the answers *I* want, OT is right, it is like trying to get comfort from your abuser.

Txts got ugly, not in the insulting way but one thing led to another (he sent me txts meant to ow, I forward them back telling him to watch what he sends to me and he thought I broke into his acct) Now he's all like "dont' txt me ever, I will take it as harrasment" Phlueasse!! he's far gone from my life, he never txts me for anything else other than for the kids or $$ stuff. It was pretty convenient since I rather txt than talk to him, now that is gone, great, I'll have to talk to him each time.

Great, just great, things got uglier and they prob didnt' have to, I was too mad not to just drop it, he just kept accusing me of breaking into his acct so I told him to learn to use his phone. He prob wont' txt me again just so he doesnt' txt me by mistake.

I didnt' want to be friends with him but didnt' want any more ugliness and I was just part of something I'm not proud of. I want to escape somewhere far far away right now.