My cool bravado was blown, however, ...Pick up beer and potato chips, a sure sign that I'm upset...I spend the next 30 minutes quite bummed out.
Yeah, I always leave before the cool bravado is blown, but it is hard. I don't get much time around W to begin with so usually don't have the chance to get down. Ummm....beer. 180 for me there. It doesn't help. Keeps ya sad. Yesterday did garden stuff. 30 minutes bummed...this occurs to me also, usually the first day I have 5D and then the first day without 5D. Don't know why. Maybe it's just the shot of jumbled up life. Always something missing.
However, be happy...he asked you to stay for dinner. It's hard but that is a good sign. Also, just because park was difficult for you doesn't mean it was a backslide. Shows you love your kids. Nothing wrong with that. I think you did as very well. You tried to avoid further awkwardness but it presented itself. That happens. You did well.
I think you are doing great and keep it up...remember no expectations...as if...
