The skydiving never happened, W was feeling poorly. On Monday I took her to hospital for a small procedure under anaestetic, leaving the two little girls with the big boys. As we left the house at noon I asked, where is s16? W said she told him to be back by one. After my w came from OR at 5, s 15 phones and tells me his brother is not home yet. I really needed him to help look after the little ones. Then he (S16) phones and says he wants to go out for the night. I tell him no, he is needed at home and he was supposed to be home by one anyway, so he is being punished. He says he wants to speak to W, I hand her the phone, telling her that I told him he could not go out. She speaks to him but I don't follow the conversation. 10 minutes later s15 phones and says s16 is going out. I phone him and he tells me Mom said it is OK. I tell him it is not, he says "you are just a power obsessed control freak, who tries to prove he is more powerful than mom." I lose it completely, and what follows is the worst fit of rage I have experienced in a long time. She KNEW I forbade him to go out, and gave him permission none the less. When the smoke clears from the battle field the next morning (tuesday) I realize that I have done more damage in a few hours than I have done in 18 years. The thing is, while I was so angry I did not WANT to be married to my wife, and that idea scares the hell out of myself. I received DR in the mail on tuesday, and read it the same day. IF ONLY I HAD THIS BOOK A YEAR AGO!
if you know of any pills that can cure Ass*&^ness please let me know! Honestly, if I were my W on monday night I would have run away too.
So, I am now officially day three DBing, and have no hope.
Me 43 W 42 M 1998 S16 S15 D7 D4 bomb 07/03/2007 OPA ILYBNILWY My Thread
