Please help me! Wife wants out! (5)

[steve477]

I tell you what, I am frustrated now. My mother has pissed me off. She did yesterday as well. Telling me that she hates to hear me talk about Japan (british bulldog coming out in her), balh blah blah. If I love Japan so much why did I come to the UK? (Couldnt really say because I felt obliged to for the family).
Today, she calls me up to ask me if we (me and W) want `the` crib. The one that I used and my sister and cousins etc... I said I dont know. I will think about it. I got back an `ok, fine got to go now, bye` then hung up. OK so I knew what she wanted to hear but I didnt say it.

Seems they dont like to see me capitulating to W (as they percieve it), but expect me to back down to them. They want me to satnd up to W, but not to them. Not really understanding that I am not standing up TO W, I am standing up FOR myself!

I talked with W about this yesterday (its nice, we are a team in this). I said that I am trying to make some changes in my life, and I know that W can see them. But it seems that no one is `ready` for me. W is not ready to take me back as the man I know I am/can be. Family not ready (possibly never will be) to see me as an inderpenant man, not just a son, brother, nephew etc...
I am SO ready to do SOMETHING! I am ready to sweep my W off her feet, to swoon her.... I am ready to make her my woman, becaouse I am her man.... Iam ready to march into her office and beat seven kinds of #%&` out of OM.... I am ready to protect my W and my child, MY LIFE.... Iam ready to stand on my own two feet emotionally and financially from everyone else... I am ready to become a man, not just a son.... Iam ready to make whatever changes my life needs to make sure I am living it fully!!

Well get ready world because Steve is coming.... ready or not!!

But in the meantime, I know, I know... baby steps, one day at a time. Relaxxxxxx.

LOL.

My time will come...

Cheers

Steve