I did good tonight, I probably said way more than you all think I should have, but H knows where I stand now. I told him that actions speak louder than words and that I wanted to give him a chance, but couldnt as long as the OW was in the pic. I told him that he hadnt changed and i was hearing the same stuff I have heard before. He still stands by the fact that he still loves and wants to be with the OW, but really doesnt know if it will work with them....
He called me tonight and I told him that it would probably be best if he didnt contact me for a while until he got his head on straight (or out of his a**). Well, guess what he said to that??
"I dont think that is such a good idea, I have a bad feeling about it"
oh, really I asked what is the problem with it...you seem confused again and I am tired of this merry go round you keep inviting me on and I am getting off. I told him that this was all about what HE wants and that he needed to take the time to figure it out...he still said he didnt want to do that...I told him to just go to bed and he would feel different tomorrow.
He is off his meds and it is really affecting him. I felt so good though taking control of things. I have no idea why he thought that wasnt a good idea. I really thought that is what he wanted...a free ticket to go back to her really.
He did bring up the fact that it wouldnt be fair to work on us when he still didnt know if it was over with the OW...I just told him that I told him that the last time and He knew that already, so for him to come back knowing different was really stupid on him part. He knew better.
Then again, maybe he didnt.
Cagz, I see what you are saying though about what I would tell my daughter...but I would probably see things a little different with a husband than with a boyfriend I guess...well, that is how I am looking at it anyway. It ticks me off that this OW has no morals to ask a married man or tell him that she wants him to be her boyfriend...he is a married man! You dont tell a married man that you want him to be your boyfriend!!....how middle school is that?
ugh...
Your right IMP....I cant count on anything from him right now, maybe never...who knows. I see him struggling though and I hate it....but I have to take care of me and my children....
He knows where I stand now....well he knows today, he may forget tomorrow....I really think he has a brain tumor and it is eating away at his memory and commen sense!
Kissak
"What time I am afraid, I will trust in thee." Psalms 56:3 M-37 H-37 S-10, D-15 M- 1993 First bomb- 12/23/06 Came and went too MANY times! Gone again 10-25-10
