Thank you so much for the advice, I really need it right now!! I have been crying a lot today!!!! I've taken down our wedding pictures & any pictures we had of us together. I still have a couple of us hanging up that we had made with our dogs (our little family pictures), but that is it. It really did happen so fast! I still just can't imagine my life without him in it!!! I know he loved me so much, I've found some cards that he gave me & he hand wrote: "Thank you for being so good to me, I cannot imagine my life without you" & "I love you more every day". That was only a couple of years ago. There are others that says he would marry me all over again. I just don't understand what kind of hold the OW has on him to make him loose site of everything.
He emailed me today just to let me know that he would be at my house at 9am on Friday to collect his files/paperwork & transfer names on any outstanding accounts, then he said he would be back at 8am on Saturday to collect his belongings. He just informed me he was doing this but did not ask me if it was all right. I didn't email him back. I'll just see him on Friday morning.
I know I have to move on as if he is not coming back, but I want him back so bad I just can't stand it right now. I'm so afraid I'm going to loose it in front of him, I'm going to try hard not to. My friend will be here on Saturday so that should help me some & then I can cry after he leaves. My eyes are going to be so swollen that he is going to know, he can always tell when I've been crying. I keep hoping that something we go through will set off some memories for him & he won't forget about me & all that we have been through. Overall we had a great marriage, of course he has rewritten history & he has been so lonely for years. Yeah, right!! I know him too well & he only acted differently after he met OW.
I need everyones support right now & I want to thank you so much for the advice, it is wonderful to have friends that understand what I'm going through.
