Having an early night tonight. Put W to bed. She said that I can go and join her later if I want. I told her that it does sound nice, but I might be nice for me to wait until she wants me to join, and not because she is sorry for me. She said she is not feeling sorry for me. So I asked does that mean you want me here? She just smiled, a cheeky smile. A flirty conversation. I always tell her to call me anytime during the night if she is sick or needs me for anything. She jsut called me, so I went in and asked what was up? She said that the baby was kicking again, and took my hand to put on her stomach. Felt it kick again! We refer to it as she now. Dont know for sure yet, but it feels like a she. I listened to her stomach for a while and its really strange, sounds like an underwater scene! W went to the doctor today, doctor remembered that last time W was in she was talking about S and stuff. Asked W hows it going now. W said that things seem to be getting a bit better, and we are trying to work out a few things. W also intimated that she is `trying` to let go of OM. Doing it for herself, not for me (whatever that may mean in alien W world). I didnt point out that I thought going cold turkey was best. Let her do it in her own time is best, especially as she will see him everyday.
Things with Dad warming up, but my Mum went off on one this afternoon. Talked a bit with W about it. Said that I have been trying to make everyone happy recently and have ended up making noone happy. She said that I have made her happy.
Small baby steps... small positives.
Goodnight
Steve
Me 27 W 30 M 2yrs/ T 5yrs Expecting our first child Sept 08 warning bomb (has feelings for someone) 21/12/08 I found out about OM (by snooping) 14/1/08 Living together.
