God give me the patience and the strength...2

[theotherhalf]

an2m I think that sometimes I keep pushing for the D only because I am needing SOME kind of peace. And many days I think if that peace will come from D than so be it. But then...I don't think that D will change a thing at this point only to protect myself financially and to lose our farm. I don't want to lose anything including my H and so you are right...I do need to stop. It's just figuring out how...