no expectations 6

[peacetoday]

I had this dream either last night or before one night my brother told me to forget about H
Today I spoke with Brother..He said that I may want to come to terms with letting H go
weird to have this conversation with B
I asked him how H was at work as they work together
He said
H is always late
doesnt return calls
gained lots of weight
has been very moody/but seems nicer lately and says they are getting along
I asked Brother if H seemed different
He asid yes, but doesnt really know how he is different
he said H never talks about us or our seperation
brother does not think he is going to stay there working
he wants to do other things
No word from H and that is good again for me
It is hard to constantly see him
and I know I may need to change the rules but not now
a little bit more
I have to pray for strength
I sense H may be ready to hit a bottom
not sure maybe wishful thinking
we will see
peace