I'm Finally Ready to "Drop the Rope"

[fooled again]

BFM - I know what you mean about things happening for a reason, like a hand is pushing us one way or another. I'm grateful that you happened upon my thread as I have read about your sitch and have drawn so much strength from your posts, especially when I have felt the lowest.

I too thought that my H sounded like FW, wanting to have it all. You really don't have to read my other stuff - it is so remarkably similar to the typical MLC story.

I feel in my heart that you are right in that I have to live my life as though he is never coming back, something I have been afraid to do until now, afraid to truly stop trying to influence him. I thought I had done this 6 mos ago, but I turned around so quickly at his pursuit and found myself back at square one, back on the roller coaster.

I do have some questions for you, which I will ask as time goes by and as I feel more comfortable letting go. Thanks for your advice about listening to my heart - many times I have second guessed my instinct and I know it was the wrong thing to do.

If you don't mind checking this thread once in awhile, I'd appreciate it, and I won't expect immediate responses to my questions.

FA