Why can't I have a relationship with someone now 5 months into my H leaving me for another woman that he isn't even with anymore? Hell he is with his second so called amazing woman.
Poor decisions...poor decisions...sure everyone here sees it that way and that is OK because opinions are like what? Yep, and everyone's got one.
Maybe H and I simply ourgrew each other? Possible? Maybe me being with someone right now is part of MY healing process and actually helping me live with the fact that H had an affair ongoing for 5 months before leaving me. If I were sitting at home still praying for my marriage to reconcile and he had told me that news maybe I wouldn't be so non-chalant OK with it. Like I said it isn't the affair itself that bothered me to hear it was that he has been lieing for 9 months.
My H knows all about what I am doing and with whom. My honesty level is sky high and I in 19 years have never kept secrets from him or lied to him so I most certtainly did tell him about seeing someone when it started. That in turn is probably why he came at me with such force. That is probably why he asked me to perform o**l on him 2 weeks ago and why he asked me about sex yesterday or hell maybe he is playing games with me who knows.
I will continue to post if people want to read and possibly use this as a learning experience for themselves however I will not continue to do so if everyone that reads my posts proceeds to ream me a new a**hole for what I am doing.
I am an adult and am doing what I need to in order to get through this emotional hell and if finding happiness and friendship with another man is my bandaid for the time being so be it. If I hurt myself or the chances of my marriage reconciling then that is a price I will have to pay however lest we forget my H walked out on me 3 days before Xmas to be with the woman he had been f***ing along with me for 5 months.
Oh Cory you have Queen B out tonight! And yes I still love you too.
Both 35 T 19/M 15 years S8/D5 It's over bomb/ILYBNILWY 12-22-07
