This speaks volumes of the person you are. You have nothing to feel stupid about. You did what you thought was the right thing, unfortunately your husband didn't deserve your trust. Who do you really think should feel stupid here?
It's sad when you want to believe that they will do the right thing only to find out that they don't know what the right thing is and haven't for an awfully long time. This will make you stronger and help you to move on. Maybe someday he'll catch up with you, who knows? Give your love and trust to people who will return it. The pay off is huge and also very healing.
Sorry about your Dad. That is something to mourn. Wasting your time grieving over someone who treated you badly is such a waste, but I know it's something that you have to do. We all do it because that's the only way of getting through this.
Good luck Sweetie........there is a light at the end of the tunnel. You can take that to the bank!
