You are right Dom... thank you. Tonight won't actually work because he is out of town, but i will try tomorrow. I'm sure you are thinking i have to do more than try... heck, i'm thinking it because i know that it is crucial, but i'm worried that I'll get emotional (cause i can't seem to control those lately) and he'll just tune me out.
I really have to work on not reacting to his anger. That's probably one of my biggest problems. I've certainly gotten better, but it's hard. For all my life, with my parents and sisters i ignored the anger. I normally removed myself from situations at home that got heated. I have always felt that the one place i shouldn't have to hide is in my M, but i have been. I just have to get over it. I have to stop trying to make sure he isn't upset and do this. I can. I have to.
I know we don't have time if nothing gets settled. I'm already feeling the stress of all this and it's not terribly good for me... tomorrow, then...
thank you for sticking with me in all of this... i don't know where i'd be without your help!!
If i can't fall in love... I'd like to fall in chocolate! ~ Author Unknown
