My H left to run some errands .. and I walked to the bank to send out a bil that we owed. I did not wear my Ipod like I usually do... I was about to walk in the fornt door and my H calls me. I had sadness in my voice apparently. He asked what is wrong and I said I dunno I just feel a little sad , I will be ok. and right now I feel very overwhelmed and I am crying I really truly dunno why.....
~maybe it is because I feel like for many years I was drowning in my pain and I could see no way out .. and I was alienating the one person who might help me and he was also alienating me? I dunno.... still more pain to get out of me,,, that is clear now. Doing something so precious and beautiful like ML between two committed partners is not so beautiful when your spirit is in tremendous pain...... feeling it and letting it go~
