This is right on the money. I see myself in a lot of your post and have experienced the same feeling. Yes, it hurts to be headed for a D (though neither of us has filed yet, she says she wants one and I have agreed to let her go; I'm out of the house so we have almost no contact). I've used this difficult time to re-evaluate my life in some very big ways and chart a new course for myself. Whether that includes her or not doesn't really matter at some level. I will live for myself and see what happens. Maybe we reconnect, or maybe I find someone else. Either way, I realize that my happiness depends on myself, no one else. I've gotten out of my old rut and see so many things in a new way. It feels good!
