I think I feel smothered

[WAS32]

I try to sit down and write in here, but it always seems to be a lot of tension when I am here. We are also very busy with our greenhouses opening soon. I am finding right now that I just can't tell him that I love him. It seems to be making him quite upset. I think I do but I am not completely positive. I feel that I should be able to say it to him when I really know I feel it. And not because he wants me too. Just because he is past what he did to me does not mean that I am past all of this. I still have many bad days and there always seems to be some sort of drama with the OW. Not to do with him, because I do know that he is staying completely away from her. Just her circle of friends crosses my circle of friends. makes some days really hard. Thanks for your advice sandi2. Sometimes I forget that there are other people out there that care. I hope I can be in here a little more often, but like I said, with the greenhouses opening soon I don't have much time to myself.

Thanks again!!!!!