Don't get me wrong, i like playing games. They are fun, we used to play them together sometimes. My issue is when i walk in the door to him playing and then he stops for a couple hours once dinner is ready just to have his friend call (like last night) and they schedule a time to start playing games together online. so, at 9 pm he's playing games until after 11. Then he can't understand why i'm too tired to do anything... helloooo i'm 7 and a half months pregnant... i get tired. venting... sorry.
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I'm guessing that: - in the past, he took you for granted - the lack of positive attention, made you crave attention from someone else - that's what got you into the EA - he's never accepted/acknowleged his influence pushing you towards that.
Your sumary was mostly right. - the lack of positive attention, made you crave attention from someone else it was really the anger and negative attention that finally crossed the line with me. When he told me he wanted a divorce because i couldn't guarantee that everything would be fine and started sleeping most nights in his office i fell apart. - he's never accepted/acknowleged his influence pushing you towards that. he tells everyone that he understands that things were bad and i needed the attention, but he won't admit fault in it. I take full blame for the EA. It was my fault I made that decision, but it wasn't my fault he chose to treat me the way he did before any of that happened.
I'm really scared to say something like you suggested above... I know i probably really need to. I've spent the last 7 months telling him that I'm not going anywhere and that he has time to forgive me and we have time to work this out. I know that i need to tell him that I can only take so much and that i need to be treated better. That he needs to change his behavior and put his family before his video games and friends... i'm scared of what his response will be. Not physically scared, but I'm scared that he will revert back to accusations about me cheating and stuff.
He always used to say that "someone was going to be nice to me and just sweep me off my feet" or "all it would take is a little attention and I'd leave him for someone else." It's funny cause he obviously knows what i need, he just doesn't seem to care enough to do it...
I really need to talk with him before the baby gets here. I don't want to deal with this and the new baby at the same time.
thanks dom...
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