Please help...need MLC advice

[tpaschal]

TPaschal,
Here is my feeling: you stood for your M because you needed to, emotionally. Looking back someday, you will be able to say "I did my very very best."

You will be able to hold your head high and tell your kids you did your best. You will be able to have closure regardless of what happens. You will have learned about yourself. And you will be able to move forward.

That is how I feel now. H will likely be with far-less-intriguing OW or alone. What will he say to D? D will see through lies.

Breton,

You are right, and I know it, sometimes it's just hard to remember amidst the pain and confusion of the moment.

And the kids DO see through the lies, but that's painful for me to see, too. I never in a million years thought they would have to go through this. Knowing the kind of man, husband, and father that he was, I never in a million years thought that they would have to go through the pain and grief of being emotionally abandoned, physically abandoned, lied to, ignored, yelled at, browbeaten, etc., etc., by their father.

It's like Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde, or invasion of the body snatchers or something.

So, surrender. It's all I can do for H right now. Surrender H and my M to God. Surrender myself to God.

I know that only in surrendering will I be able to find the strength and the peace to start living a new and different life, to start living like H won't come back, to start living for the kids, and for ME.

But it sure would be nice if God would send me a big message in the clouds telling me what to do!! LOL!

Thanks again to all who responded. Sorry for the pity party yesterday. But they are getting fewer and farther between! :-)