FA - I don't read many threads here anymore - just simply limited on time, but for some reason I happened to open yours and read it this morning.
God must have been speaking to me I guess.
You can ask any questions you like and I will try to answer them as I have time.
One bit of advice - live your life as if he's never coming back. That's what I did. I wanted him back. I wanted to reconcile, but I didn't put my life on hold waiting for him to come back (I didn't date anyone, but that was more because I wasn't ready to not because of waiting around for him). Anyway, act as if you are divorced and this is the way your life is going to be from now on.
Zero expectations. Don't "drop the rope" hoping it will illicit a response. It won't be authentic and believe me, your H will be able to tell a difference when you truly have stopped living as if he is coming back.
Your H sounds a lot like FW from just this post - I haven't read your other stuff. Wants to keep that connection to home and you, but still wanting to hold onto the freedom and endorphins in the world away from you.
Keep praying and follow your heart with all this. Many times I didn't follow the advice given on here because I just didn't feel that it was right for me. I felt God leading me in a different direction. You have to do what is right for you and no one else can tell you what that is exactly.
BFM
There is only one person who could ever make you happy, and that person is you. David Burns, Intimate Connections
