I made it through night 1. It wasn't as bad as I thought, I really didn't cry, I thought about how crappy it was that it has come to this but I wasn't in agony. H texted me about 10 times between the time I got off work and 8:30. What am I doing, what did I have for dinner ect., did I still want him to watch D today. At 8:30 the contact stopped and I did not hear from him the rest of the night. It was hard for me not to call or text to see where he was or how he was, but I didn't.
He arrived this morning at 6:15, I have to leave for work at 7:10. He brought coffee and a doughnut for my daughter. He looked like hell and claimed to have slept in his car - I strongly question this - in his past history if this was the case I would have rec'd random messages all night long. Regardless I guess that should not be my concern right now. I really was not that good at putting on a smile and not addressing the R, while I didn;t address anything specifically about the R I did ask if he felt that all his choices were worth having no where to go and sleeping in the car. I did not cry while he was there so I am happy for that. He was trying not to cry for most of the time until I left.
Me~34 H~38 D6.5
EA/PA-DEC.07
Moved out~Apr.13,08 Sep. Papers~Dec.7,08 No contact order ~Dec.9,08 and again October 13, 2009
