I have to agree with the opinions you are getting from others on this. There is a lot of pain, sadness, and sacrifice. But, we are all making choices to take a stand, so we are responsible for that end of things at least. Just because we do so doesn't mean it's going to feel good though. I think you have been very giving in spirit and working hard at taking care of yourself in a prolonged and difficult situation. To me, that's not martyrdom. I think it would be inhuman to not feel frustrated, sad, and want to complain sometimes given the circumstances! In my mind, that's grieving, dealing with trauma, and trying to heal through incredibly trying times.
