When W dropped the kids off tonight, D5 said something to her about her coming back and that she was torn between OM and myself. W laughed and I tried to find out exactly what D5 said that was so funny, but W would not repeat it.
Then when I was putting S7 to bed, he said that mommy said that she misses me a lot.
Hopefully, I may soon be at your point BBJ, where my spouse wants to come back and work on our M. Then I will be facing the same thing as you in dealing with trust issues within myself.