Wide Awake, I feel you. I am not as deeply involved (timewise) as you are but my marriage was intense and the pain of seperation is equally as tough. My W too seems to have chosen a life of at least bisexuality. I miss her terribly. No contact at all for quite a while. We even slept in the same bed before the night of the incident. Her false accusations of physical abuse are so painful. Like you, I admit to many mistakes. There were times in the relationship that I was lazy. But my job also paid most of the bills. Like you, I had bought us a home that was comfortable. In short, I felt I was living the dream. But something under the surface was wrong. Something I missed. Now with no contact, I may never know. I can't say its going to be ok for you because I really don't know how your case will turn out. All I can say is I am here for you. I know what you are gong through. I know that your pain is so real, so hurtful. You feel lost, you are burdened with regrets and frustrated by your partner's actions. In your head, the default commitment was to always get through whatever challenge you faced, you did it together. She backed out of that commitment. All I can say is keep going...
