Grace, I looked up the definition of martyr and this is what it said :a person who sacrifices something of great value and especially life itself for the sake of principle.
So, friend, I am trying to figure out why you feel you are being a martyr and the only thing I could figure out is that maybe you feel that you are going NC to prove a point. And from what I have read about you, that just isnt possible.
You are a strong, wise, caring woman. If you decided that going NC was what you had to do, I know that it is because you felt that it is the best course of action at this time. I know that you did not rush into this decision and that you would not do this just to prove a point.
Grace, this is all so difficult for all of us. Dont beat yourself up for trying to do the best you can, for trying to survive and stay the course in the best way you know how.
