My pastor has been preaching on the fruit of the spirit for several weeks both before Easter and after. Love, Joy, and Peace before Easter and Patience and Kindness after.

I want more Joy in my life. I know that I have the love of my children, my students, my friends, and God. I am very blessed. I would like romantic love but I am willing to wait for that so that it is right this time. I believe my H will be that romantic love again. I have been feeling much more peaceful since I have just put my faith in God. My finances are getting straightened out slowly.

Patience is something I am always striving for and usually lacking. I believe I have always had kindness in my life. I am a kind person except when it comes to OW and I am still struggling there.

H and I had a long talk (1 to 1 1/2 hours on the phone). We talked about both S's and their R with H and not wanting a R with OW. We talked about many other things and he professed to wanting to put all of this behind us and start a new R with one another that would allow us to work together. We agreed that email communication was not working. This was at the end of March. I have not contacted him about anything and hoped that he would contact me when he wanted to talk. Instead he sent another email asking about one of the same issues we had already settled in our last phone conversation. Seems that he has forgotten that conversation OR could it be like a couple of my friends have said to me that H has to keep that contact with me and if it takes being a jerk to do it then that is what he will do. Both of these gals said that he is like the naughty child that does things for attention. They said he just can't live without attention from me.

I hope they are right because it does make it a little easier to deal with if it is just attention he wants and not that he really hates me.

Have a good week and pray for all of our WA's. I am praying for all of us, too.

Last edited by ANewMe; 04/08/08 01:48 AM.
Everything happens for a reason, maybe Dad needs to find that it isn't better out there, he needs to realize how good he had it here. Maybe he will find God and that is the most important thing when he finds Him he will know he is supposed to come home.