Everyone has backslides EVERYONE. (at least you didn't "waste" a whiskey on him)
Now you go back and think about what you could have done differently so it doesn't happen again. It's ok to backslide but it's not ok if you don't learn from them.
(((HUGS)))
Jen
Jen *The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present*
LOL about the whiskey Jen! I have definitely learned from it. He brought S4 to baseball practice tonight. When he dropped him back off I apologized for freaking out. I told him that when I know I am going to see him it is fine, but it is too difficult when he just pops in like that. He agreed to give me some warning from now on.
I forgot to mention....I am registering for the fall semester at the local university! I am so excited! I am majoring in Accounting and I will be a CPA. I have wanted to do this for so long, and what better time than now when I am trying to refocus my life.
I am just gonna take 9 hours a semester (3 classes). It'll take me about 5 years to finish, but that is OK. I have all the time in the world. This is such a big goal of mine. I don't care how long it takes.
Still hanging in there. I am starting to lose faith that I will be able to save my marriage. I'm not sure what is going on with me, but I am starting to get really discouraged. It has been a month now that H and I are separated. He doesn't miss me at all, and he says he is happy. I'm just feeling really down about this right now. I want more than anything to be able to work this out, but the reality of my situation is really starting to take hold of me. Any advice? Is this just a normal phase?
Good talk with H tonight. S is turning 5 on Saturday, so my sis and I took him and his cousins out to dinner. The waiters sang Happy Birthday to him. He was so embarrassed he literally slid under the table. It was really cute. H called when I got home, and I was telling him all about it. Then we talked some about S's birthday party. H was at Wal-Mart this evening. He ran into my SIL, who is a bit of a gossip. She talked his ear off about our R, and let him know that if he needed someone to talk to she was a good listener, etc. H was annoyed, but in an amusing way. We both laughed about what a nutjob she is. Then he told me about some issues his brother is having. His bro spent most of the evening at his apartment because he is having some issues with his W. H just sat and talked with him a while. It was nice that he shared all of those worries with me. It was like old times for a minute. I was the one to end the call when we got finished talking. It was overall a good talk.
