no expectations 6

[peacetoday]

thanks
for all your replies
I am feeling a bit more grounded today
but
sometimes I wish I could run too
like Ive been thinking about moving
probably my way to try to escape this mess
I see no way out
feel as though this may last forever or at the very least another year, and then I may still be in same spot..nowhere
I dont know if I could make it another year
I am tryiong to shift my focus on rebuilding my life
working on friendships with women
and keeping up with kids
trying to plan summer camps ect.
music lessons
new school for D
need to fugure out what I can do for PT work
I need to be busier
I started a business but im not sure how to market myself
or if I could really make money at this
it is a wellness- fitness business
I teach yoga
and much of the time I focus too much on H or mom
so I have no energy to figure this business out
but I feel God wants me to do it
just dont know how to start
Mom is still sick , so thats another depressing situation
that is on hold
I know there will be peace on the other side of this road
hope I make it there soon and in one piece

No word from H today and that is good and a relief to not see him
peace