NikB #26 (tentatively moving to Piecing, again)

[NikB]

Thanks all!! Had a great remainder of the weekend, except my cough got worse and my voice is now TOTALLY gone. Couldn't even sing at Saturday's concert. But it was still an awesome show and a lot of fun.

Ellie
I didn't know that about your son being born to Thunder Road - that is so cool!! Good song to start off his life.

OMG that would have been an AWESOME show. I am jealous. I think I've seen clips of that concert.

On the health/medical - honestly I have set that stuff aside more than I should have recently. Still generally being healthy but not focusing enough on it. I eat low carb most of the time so by virtue of that I'm fairly close to gluten free as well. Been 'cheating' too much on that lately though. Actually now that you say that, I wonder if that's been a contributor to my latest "funk" a bit. Not TOO low, but just not feeling totally like myself. I was blaming Spring allergies but diet could be a huge factor also.

SD
Thanks!! Boy it's hard to keep that detachment thing in mind - in ALL things. Thanks for the reminder. Letting go of control is so hard but so critical.

Thanks for the cheerleading, too!! Yes, very important to let myself be me and ENJOY it when I am. Worrying less about the outcome, I am definitely working on. Refusing to hide or hold onto things is an excellent place to be. I need to strive for that, as well.

Love that quote, thanks!!

ST
Wow that is great stuff! No worries about "hijacking," I don't mind a bit, and it all applies to me too. I think I often see myself in a pretty judgmental way - i.e. judge myself far more harshly than most others would judge me. Good reminder that changing that internal perception goes a long way towards changing my overall attitude.

Michelle
Thanks - yes, great weekend!

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Saturday as I mentioned Mom and I went to the concert... awesome show again!! I couldn't sing along since I had no voice, but I did at last dance my butt off. The Sacto show is likely going down as one of his legendary ones, very cool. San Jose was great but Sac was just WOW.

It was a long drive home so I got back around 2:00 and there were a ton of people at the house. Sort of an impromptu party H decided to have, I guess. It was kind of odd. There was that sleazy guy I mentioned a few times who brought some girl other than his girlfriend, another guy who I like pretty well, and his girlfriend who just got back from some gig at the Playboy mansion. Apparently a bunch of other people were going to come over but flaked. Everyone was all excited that "the lady of the house" got home and H gave me a huge hug and kiss, then they put on dance music and H kept wanting me to dance with him. They were teasing me saying they wanted to throw me a "concert after party." I couldn't talk at all, so good thing they were into music.

We didn't get to bed until almost 5 AM... slept until about 2:30 on Sunday (off and on because I had a horrible cough that kept waking me up). I couldn't believe it when we got up, my voice was still completely and totally gone - and it still is today! I'm sure it will get better but it's kind of freaking me out. So no, we haven't had the talk yet. I finally psych myself up for it and then I can't talk.. sheesh. I think it's the universe telling me not to put things off next time!

I've tried every home remedy I could find today and nothing has worked so far. Hopefully the combination plus not talking all day will help by tomorrow. It's really screwing me up at work! If anyone has any miracle cures for Laryngitis I am all ears. So far I'm gargling warm salt water, drinking lots of water, boiling water on the stove to make the house really humid, and drinking this icky "tea" made of hot water, cayenne pepper, apple cider vinger, honey, and ginger. It tastes about as nasty as it sounds... doesn't seem to help my voice that much but it does stop me from coughing for awhile so I'm still trying it.

Hope everyone's doing well, I'll check in more soon.