This is really hard. It is hard to know that my H isn't coming home tonight. It is hard to know that it is not his choice that if I said ok he would but I need him not too because of all the other choices he makes. And he may never be home again. It is hard because D4 is already asking for him.

He should be here to watch her tomorrow, the one day a week that she needs his care, his mother is prepared if he does not show up.

I hate this.

Me~34
H~38
D6.5

EA/PA-DEC.07

Moved out~Apr.13,08
Sep. Papers~Dec.7,08
No contact order ~Dec.9,08 and again October 13, 2009