H and I had sex this afternoon. And guess what...neither of us felt anything for the other. That is what I needed. I am in such a good place right now. Weird to say the least but I now know that there was nothing there. I don't know that there ever will be again. He also said he now felt guilty because he was cheating on the new girlfriend that he is really into. Well, FG...I felt the same guilt...I know I said no dating but I did start dating someone about 3 weeks ago. Some of us students are just not Jedi material Master Yoda.
I am happy with life right now and in a very good emotional place and will survive this. I can't help but feel H and I both needed this today in order to test the waters and see what was there. Who knows maybe in 6 months or a year things will be different but today was interesting to say the least.
Both 35 T 19/M 15 years S8/D5 It's over bomb/ILYBNILWY 12-22-07
