Stronger - but still confused

[Snow White]

I don't know why I titled this thread Stronger - what a joke. Honestly there is nothing strong about me. h stayed at home again last night, not because he apologized or said he would change, nothing even that positive, just because I didn;t force the issue again. He sent me a text at work today saying - should I just sleep here tonight? - Fishing I guess if i was still mad - thinking it will go away like it always does. I said yes if you have no where else to go. His response - are you serious?

I responded back - yes, serious, I love you and I always will but you tried to hurt me the other night and now I am afraid for myself and D4. You are welcome to come home once you have your life in order and you have decided what what to do with it.

That was an hour and a half ago. I am not strong.

It is killing me not to call to check if he got it, and because I sent it through the computer there was no room to put a reply to number so I even wonder if he replied but it went off into space. I will not contact him again, but it is a struggle. I need someone else's strength because mine is just not good enough.