Thanks so much to all of you for your kind support...
I wound up hardly sleeping at all Saturday night..just a bit of fitful dozing. So, of course, i felt like cr*p all day yesterday, but tried to make the best of it. But not very productive day...big surprise! I took some antihistamine last night, both to help sleep and to combat some serious sneezy, allergy-type feelings. It did work better, and I was only awake for about an hour around 2am.
I also made a conscious effort to stop torturing myself by poring over their emails...but it was really hard to look at H yesterday and for the first time be truly aware of the depth and long-term nature of his feelings for OW, and how very empty I felt about it.
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Being around H would hurt me so much, but being away from him hurt as well.
LBW, that's so true...i'm guessing that's especially so while H is still living here, and we put on the act of being an intact family...
This is where i need some help/advice:
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But L, you can just take care of yourself, distance yourself from your H at this point. Not in a hostile way, but just in a way that YOU have more peace.
How do i do this in a way that does not trigger a reaction both from H and especially from my boys? It's going to be a real tightrope trick, i fear...
